We cannot become what we want to be by remaining what we are. — Max DePree
Isn’t it funny how our minds unconsciously prepare us for upcoming change? I know, I was just writing about how I’m making a conscious effort to live in the moment and appreciate where I am now before I move. Even so, as I rolled into work a tad on the late side this morning I caught myself cursing traffic and thinking, “I can’t wait until I move in a month and don’t have to deal with this traffic anymore.”
Mind you, my new home will not be any closer to work than I am now. In fact, traffic could
even be probably will be worse on that side of town. But it’s like the promised newness is a glittery object (preferably from Anthropologie) dangling in front of me that I can’t help but mesmerizingly coo “oooh pretty” with arms outstretched.
Rather than look at this as a bad thing, I’ve realized it’s actually a coping mechanism of sorts. I’m soon closing the “post-grad firsts” chapter of my life, and my mind is just helping me prepare for a smooth transition to whatever is next. Instead of wanting to hold on tightly to what I have now out of comfort, nostalgia, fear or laziness, my mind is letting me acknowledge those minor details that aren’t 100% awesome to fuel anticipation of all that’s to come.
So, May marks the last month of my South Dallas home and roommates, and I plan to make the most of it by…
- Spending as many sunny afternoons at the rooftop pool as I can, even if it’s just for the last hour of sun after work.
- Actually using my apartment’s gym.
- Hosting a going away party, preferably pool-side of course.
- Finally photographing my favorite buildings, painted walls and random art structures throughout South Dallas.
- Riding the DART…somewhere.